Unsent Messages

I really want to like you, you are everything a girl wants, tall, cute, smart but for some reason i can't like you. But in a way without you i feel like a part of me is missing. You were my first love. And i really wish we were still in contact. And i hate hoe you pretend to not be interested in being my friend. I hate your new friends. i just really miss you. I remember the nicknames you used to call me. We didnt even fight, we just started moving on with our lives. Talking less and less to the point where we dont even talk. We used to be bestfriends. I can't tell if i want you in my life as a lover or as my bestfriend again. I doubt you are even reading this since you barely go on the internet but i just hope you know i will always be there for you.