God the amount of emotion I feel towards you drives me insane, you're always on my mind to the point where- my god- its embarrassing how much I've cried. It's a funny thing to think that i jus told myself all these years that what i felt for you just wasn't there, when she came and asked if it was ok for her to date you, the shattering pain i felt was like being hit by a semi-truck. I just want to not mess it up this time, you're the only one...