its crazy im typing this even though I know you want nothing to do with me and never did. I wish maybe you would've said something other than you hate your life but I suppose it doesn't really matter because it never would have worked in the first place. idk if you were my first love but you definitely were my biggest crush. it took me so long to get over you. i hate you so much but I still get butterflies when I look at you. why did you do this to me.