i love you. i know you’re gonna leave though and it hurts so bad knowing that. ive fucked up so bad in the past, and i really cant afford to loose you. that’s why i shut down. that’s why i act the way i do sometimes. i’m so sorry. i hate myself for making you feel you’re not good enough. you’re way more then that, and that’s the thing. i feel so selfish because i need u. i really do, but i don’t want to hurt you. i’m so scared of it because you only deserve happiness. i’m never gonna let you go no matter what tho. hate me, tell me i’m not good enough, point out every one of my insecurities or imperfections, and i will still love you. i really hope we last, but it kills me to know that nothing lasts forever. the thought of loosing you kills me. literally. it turns my stomach, gives me a headache, makes me throw up. i’m so scared to get even more obsessed then i already am because i dont. want. to. hurt. you. you mean more then anything to me and i never would’ve thought you would stay this long. i’m so sorry.