i miss you very much. it's been 9 months. i wish you could have met asher. he's special. you two would have gotten along great. flicka was started. i've come to the conclusion that she's just not made for me like i had always thought. she's grandpa's. and you're mine. i wish i could have saved you. i'm sorry everything happened. i wish i could see your adorable hay belly one more time. i wish you hadn't gotten so skinny before. im so sorry i couldn't do more for you, just know i love you with everything inside me and i would have done anything i could to make you happy.