Unsent Messages

you know... i keep asking myself why do you keep leaving? is it something i did? did i mess it up, like you always make me believe i did? or is it you? manipulating me, like you always do? or is it just the both of us, letting us go over the same fight over and over when we shouldn't? if we know it's not healthy for the both of us, why do we keep going? i don't know what to do. you've turned into something you would've hated months ago. and someone i would hate now. i keep giving you these useless chances you keep wasting on dumb shit. we have the same fight over and over again but what's the point if you don't listen to what i say anyway? you're a toxic prick, that i can't seem to get rid of. all my friends are fed up with you enough. why can't i be? i mean; i am afterall, but why can't i let go? why can't i do what my friends tell me to do? why do i keep sticking around for no reason? maybe you're just a master at manipulation that i can see through but can't let go of. i'm sick of your behavior. but i can't learn to let go. my biggest mistake was sticking around anyway.