Unsent Messages

I don’t regret meeting you but what i do regret is giving you my all , giving you everything I had in me I never received from no one. At some point I felt like you were too good for me and u deserved so much better. I would see how sad I’d make you then happy. I took the most hardest decision and left you. which til this day I regret but then I kept coming back to you and so did you. why would you come back to just leave me like I left you. Why would you put me into more pain than what I was already going through I just wanted u man. I wanted everything with you and just you. there was so significant other i wanted but you. You were all I thought about and still do. you kept coming back and saying I changed you but you know why I left but sometimes I wish you would understand it wasn’t easy. You made me sm better and happier. you felt home. I miss you , but why would you come back again to just tell me to finish what I started when I was willingly trying again in us and still had faith in us. But I see you didn’t you just came back to keep me happy for a lil and do the same shit you do and make me leave without me wanting too. I left with a pain in my back .. I hate you but love you my love is so strong for you and I hate that you act like nothing happend while I’m always here hurting I’m always the one hurting and I’m so tired of it you don’t understand how much I’d want to let go of you and forget you but I can’t. someday I will though and that day I will your gonna be stuck on me like I was stuck on you. I hope you feel my pain that I’ve held because of you. As much as I love you I don’t deserve someone like you. I hope you find what u wanted and later on hurt , because you lost the only person who was ever gonna love you u conditionally and for you. You ever find someone like me who was lovely and patient and had much care for you. I regret putting you first before myself. you were my first love and It sucks it went this way , I’ll never forget you but I really hope I get the ability to move on and glow up within it. I loved since day one and I still do but til the i move on from you. Goodbye my love