idk how to put into words what it felt like to be with you. i wish i could hug you one last time. and talk to you. but things have changed. sometimes i wish things had happened differently between us but i wouldn’t EVER take back the “friendship/relationship” we had. you knew me, and you just got things. i didn’t need to try with you, barely ever. i was sad when you were sad, and i was crying when we fought. i hated the fact i couldn’t decide what i wanted with us. nowing that now.. i wish i did. because u went for her. i was broken and i was going through my own person shit hell that i wish i told you but i’d never bring you into my messy world i kept on the side hidden from u. we tried again, everyone saying to have faith, we know it’ll work out. it didn’t. but it was nice having you around, even if it was for a little and caused me pain. you were something so meaning full in my life that it was the first & last state of peace/happiness i got. i hope you know i’ll be here for u when you need that shoulder, or be around. even after everything we both did, i’d be looking out for u. i don’t think i ever got to say it but i’ll say it now. i love you, & i’ll always look out for u… yours truely X