Unsent Messages

can you open your eyes? ive wanted to be with you for over a year but your stuck up on the same blonde hair, green eyed, model, perfect body girl. I have shit brown hair, shit brown eyes, hip dips, braces, and not enough for you. its not the fact you dont want me, its the fact you know i want you so you take advantage of that soft spot i have for you. you say were fwb, i wish i actually meant something to you, and that everytime we kiss, it means something. i get my ass in trouble for you, i fight for our friendship. you dont see it tho. maybe you do feel the same, but chances are you dont, and ik ive mentally hurt myself over and over just overthinking what you think about me or how you see me in your eyes. im not gonna stop trying, as much as it kills me, i need to know, am i wasting my time? or do you feel the same.