Something. That's what I call it. I am not sure how to define it. It does not strictly fit in the category of friendship nor relationship. I put so much time, so much effort and energy into this "something" that is in the end, continuously hurting me over and over again. It is like I vicious cycle that I can not control, let alone stop. I know this is bad for me but I can't help myself. Your words hurt, joking or not. Everything you do has an affect on me. You could call me sensitive or you could call me in love. Regardless, I know one thing. I care about and I want you in my life, whether it be for the better or for the worse.