I talked to you today and it felt weird. I know we agreed to put things aside but you really hurt me. You hurt me bad. I cried so much because of you and you ruined my mental health. I cared for you so much and didn't even get the bare minimum back. You were part of my routine. Someone I loved so fucking much. At one point, I loved you more than anything. I wish you could understand more how I felt and how you hurt me. I wish things would automatically go back to the way things were but I know that wouldn't work.. I just missed you so much..