Unsent Messages

thank you for teaching me that i don't need you. I never did. I convinced myself that you were the only one who could make me feel the way you did. But love isn't supposed to feel that way. It isn't supposed to feel like begging. It isn't supposed to feel like defending you to my friends. It isn't supposed to feel like I'm never enough, even after you left. I can see that you've read my texts. Every time I've begged for an explanation. But I'm done begging. I will not be reduced to replies that I don't get. So while you read those texts and tell yourself that I'm crazy. Remember that you're the one who made me 'crazy' for you, over you, and then over you disappearing with no explanation. I told you that you had until New years day but honestly, at this point all I want to say to you is this: from the bottom of my heart, from the deepest parts of me that I thought you loved and cared about, Fuck you.