Unsent Messages

i don't know what i liked so much about you. maybe because you were my first love. i never thought about a future with you until you said, i can imagine us living together. so i stopped living in the present because i thought we had a future together but you were already planning a future with someone else. i don't think about you as often anymore so it's not too bad. i realised that i never told you how much i loved you, maybe if i did you would still be holding my hand. i got better, i forgot about you, met some lovely people and learned to love myself again. but one day i looked in the mirror and cried for the first time in a while. i was crying because i suddenly missed you so much. every time i feel terrible or hurt, i just wanted to call you and see you but i could never. i know you aren't thinking about me anymore because you found someone who you loved truly. but no matter the time or place, i'll always be thinking of you and wishing you all the happiness. i hope you're doing well, maybe in the future i would've cried because of someone else and not you. love, yours