From: ABC
To: Kian
Date: November 30, 2020, 3:37 am
It is 9:30 Pm when I’m leaving this, and I have given up on what I call the reality I am in, I’ve been struggling to keep I semi perishable imagine of myself only for me to realize I have everything and when I have everything I can’t do nothing. Because I have everything I need and people would die for, I have nothing to accomplish anymore, and with that I leave you a hint of whatever I call being “Loved” growing up I never received loved as much as I thought I did, I thought for months maybe leaving it traced other people I would’ve called it loved, but no I doubt it. My heart goes out to the many people I’ve disappointed, being I have been pushing people away, I find it unsettling when they seem upset, god you know I hate people seeing them in that way. The things I wish I could’ve said, will always remain unsaid and until then I’ll see you somewhere in the depths of hell as promised. Mortifying and scaring people should be fun if that’s actually after life. With that I leave you with a last song and kiss. Your good old friend Evangeline Marie, and you know the rest of my last name.