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i love you so much, and you dont know how much I miss you. i know you said it wasn't my fault that we broke up.. that it was the distance but you don't know hoe much I think about you. you dont know how badly i want to text you but everyone says no, you dont know how madly i miss you. you dont know how i miss our daily texts, and our daily facetimes. no matter if we sat in complete silence while we were doing our thing.. just hearing you breathe, just hearing your laughs, i miss it all. and i will never stop missing it. i know you moved on but i physically can not. you saved me at such a low point in my life, then had the audacity to put me back with no feelings. I CRIED FOR HOURS that day, it was the day my whole life shattered before my eyes. when we had that whole talk about how different we were I really thought we could solve the issue. but you gave up, you clearly gave up on us so easily. I don't think you know that so many people go through long distance relationships and they last months and years until they finally meet. we were going to be that, we were going to be that great meet up in the airport or we hug until we fall. we were that. we could have been that.. and its gone now. its all gone, im still broken. i still want you, i have too much love for you to ever give it up. trust me, i want to move on. i want to move on from you, i want to no longer cry myself at night because i miss you. i know you have a girlfriend that is so much prettier than me, and lives like next door to you. and im sure you are so happy with her. i just want you to be happy with me as well.. i just wish i was enough for you. but i will surely move on, i will find my happiness in whatever needed. i just wish it was in you.