Unsent Messages

I know I should hate you but I can’t. I saw you today and I hate how it made me feel. My hands were shaking. I hate how we ended things and I hate that we fucked up what we had by deciding to fuck around and I hate that even after we couldn’t be friends because of her. I hate that you didn’t tell me and I hate that I had to find out before you told me. I hate that you did want you did knowing you were hers and never mine. I hate that I fell stupidly for you and that a small part of me wanted you and I hate that I wanted to be her because she had the one thing I would never have the one thing I had for only a small period of time. You. But you, you led me on the way you acted wasn’t just a fling and the more I think about it the angrier I get because fuck you and the more I think about it the more I realize what I thought I felt for you was exactly how I wished no other girl be treated because you made me feel like shit Michael. And the sad part it I know we could have been great friends if we wouldn’t have taken that stupid step but now I realize your a piece of shit and she’s an idiot for staying with your lying cheating ass but yea this is everything I never said. I hate myself for still feeling something for you but I know it will go away soon.