Unsent Messages

i love you but I'm so tired. I don't wanna give up on us but I'm emotionally exhausted. u came into my life and made me so happy but u gave up when I needed u most. I'm never gonna hate u but u made me hate and question everything abt myself. and guess what ? ill do it again. id go back and relive everything knowing this is how it was gonna end jus to feel that happy. ur breaking me and I'm losing myself. it feels like everyday is jus repeating itself since the day u said u lost ur love for me. u replaced me that fast. how did u replace me that fast. I was ur baby. ur world. ur everything. n now she's in the picture. "ill always love u and care abt u." ha. ig I was always right. I knew I was gonna mess everything up n u were gonna give up on us. I can't even blame u. I trusted u with my body and now I can't even take it back. I thought u were the one. ik were only 15 but idk. I jus feel connected to u ig. maybe I jus had rly bad attachment issues. why would u pick her ? I know that she was there for u but so was i. I was the one sending u paragraphs. I was the one crying bc I fucked up ur mental health. I was the one worried abt u. I was the one who cared the most. I'm tired of begging. I jus feel so worthless. I tried everything I could possibly do to get u back n nothing worked. maybe if I would've given u space u woulda came back but I honestly doubt it. I needed to show effort. to show that I rly do love you. I jus wish u texted me saying "lets start over, I don't wanna actually lose this" but thats never gonna happen is it ? our 1 yr anniversary is coming up. well it was supposed to b our 1 yr anniversary. we would've been so happy. its crazy how u can be so in love with someone n the next day they can jus lose feelings all bc of some dumb mistake. but its ok. this is how it was supposed to end rii ?