From: ABC
To: lexi
Date: October 23, 2020, 2:10 am
my life hasn’t been stable ever since things ended. now with u back in my life again, and after today from finally seeing each other, it feels like it’s all just back to normal right? except it’s not because as soon as u leave i feel the need to hug you tighter. the feeling of missing you is back to how it was once before. i’m so happy with what came out of today, but still always want more. and maybe that’s selfishness, because you’re with someone else, or maybe it’s just me being clueless, because i still feel something there. i hate being alone, and you stayed with me even longer because you know that, but now that u did leave, i hate the feeling of being alone even more. i just need things back to normal, and for you to be steady in my life again. i know that takes time, but i keep telling myself that if i love you this much, it’s worth the wait. i’ll suffer from the “maybe one day”thoughts until i hopefully overcome them, not for me, but for you because i know that now you really do need me more than ever. now i am seeing how much we both need each other in each of our lives.