Unsent Messages

i guess i ruined kiri for you
i guess you ruined kiri for me too
did you know you have the same scar as him?
i realized that today
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I know you didn't like All the Bright Places
the movie kinda sucks
the book is still okay
it just reminds me of cutting out all the bad words and leaving the pretty words left
you're a pretty word
"ethereal" doesn't seem enough anymore
oh well
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Howl's Moving Castle is really good
so is Ponyo
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I'm always scared to watch anime on Hulu because I still have yours.
I mean you haven't said anything which i guess obviously you wouldn't directly but you could always say something to Logan.
Whenever I can see you watching something it's like i forget that you've said things
things that have hurt. i forget about that a lot actually.
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i realized all i want to do is talk about anime with you.
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I realized i won't be able to trust you ever again. no matter how much i want you to acknowledge my presence, i know its better that you don't.
for some reason ever since new years i can't stop thinking about you and everything.
it's actually really draining but i just can't seem to stop.
i miss you.
i almost wrote another song about you and i had to stop myself lmao.
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being left by 3 people you really care about hurts.
and it sucks that i still care about you three.
i have no idea why
i just do
i want you to get your shit together too
and i feel useless
i was just dropped in the mud and then had a blizzard of things told to me and ever since, i don't know what to believe or how to feel.
and i think apart of me just wants you to tell me how to feel.
cause i really don't know. and that sucks.
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okay that enough paragraphs.
i told you i could write whole books to you.
guess you didn't believe me
also
"Hug all Your Friends" by Cavetown
its us i guess
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-someone with complicated feelings-
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