Unsent Messages

Hey bro. I know you notice and I've also heard the stuff you say about me. I hate all the pretending we do. All the fakeness behind it because as soon as we turn our backs we're miserable. We make each other miserable and for some reason thats horribly addicting. I know how competetive you are with your ed and god it hurts. But all in all, I think what hurts the most is why I dislike you. Its not because of what we do to eachother or the unkind people we are, but rather because you remind me of past me. Your a reminder of all the things I've done to become a bad person. Everything im running away from, you are following pursuit. I'm trying to be a better person, a good person. I hate the person i was, but I guess a part of this is that i shouldnt dislike u because ur a reminder. Thats unfair and selfish. Im sorry. Im sorry of all the things we do to eachother and the empty laughs we spit. I hope our friendship gets better. And I hope your doing well as well. See you soon