Unsent Messages

why can't you just be happy? i'm trapped inside of my self and i'm trying to be heard and let out. why can't you just accept the fact that you're not okay? i feel as though i'm in closed in this dark abyss where there isn't anything to pull me out. i feel like i can't breath, why is that? god , i just wanna feel that euphoric happiness that so many people get to experience and live my teenage years to the fullest. instead i lock myself away and wrap myself in a blanket of self-loathing, loneliness and pain. you're so angry at the world and for what? You've been through a lot lately and you feel as though you have no one to turn to, losing someone who you thought would be with you for a long time hurts but i want you to know that she wasn't worth it. you are worth so much more even though you don't believe and it seems like a lie even whilst i'm typing this but i want you to know that when you're ready, there's a whole world out there for you to experience and although you don't think it will happen, you'll meet someone later in life who'll love you until the universe collapses. please know that. i won't say i love you because we know that's not true. hold on a little longer for us, okay?