Unsent Messages

Hey, i know you'll never see this but i miss you. I know we still talk & stuff but i miss you as more than a friend. Our relationship was kinda a mess but it was a mess we could both deal with. I feel like you knew you were my escape, especially during then with everything going on in my life. We never acted liked we were dating. We acted like best friends who loved each other to death but would never tell each other. The names we called each other, not out of anger or hatred, made it seem like it was the most toxic relationship. It wasn't though. We were both just scared. Scared of falling for someone that would leave us. In the end you were fine but I wasn't. I cried for days trying to figure out what I did wrong. Turns out I didn't do anything, you just didn't know how to talk to me. So you say. I have no hard feelings about it though. I just want you to know i still care about you & I hope you're okay. I don't know why I'm writing this because it's all over the place but I couldn't say it to you directly so this'll have to work. I'm gonna stop now before I write a 20 page essay. Much love loser