Unsent Messages

I miss you and I’m sorry I’m not who you thought I was. But I’m glad you cut me off. I can’t love someone else right now. I’m broken and I don’t know if I’ll ever get better. I hope I didn’t put you through too much pain. I can’t stop looking for the bad qualities in others, thinking everyone hates me, and hurting others to make myself feel better. My mind is constantly in defense mode.I’m a broken person and I have been always been this way. I’ve never been mentally healthy and have never been near someone who’s was. I hope you’re okay and I hope you didn’t listen to a word I said. You did hurt me too just so you know and I do think you could work on yourself too. You’re great as you are. You don’t need to hurt others and trick others to get satisfaction. I’m left confused. Did you ever care about me? Did I ever mean a thing to you? Was I just a game? I’ll never know.