it hurts because i care for you so much im not sure if i love you im not sure of anything, but i know that my heart longs for you when your not here. Theres a lot i havent told you, theres a lot i need to work out. i dont know what im doing i am so close to letting go and i cant put you through that but im holding onto anything that makes me feel loved,, anything that gives me a reason to live but i dont think its working. if only you could feel the trapped emotions in my chest i want to express to you. im confused as to what i want to do right now i hope you will come to understand that im sorry im trying
