Unsent Messages

i miss you..more than you could ever imagine. i wish i could tell you how i feel without messing it up. i wish you could feel the same way. but since this isn’t getting sent directly to you i can try to describe it. it’s like a warm feeling, safe. it makes me look forward to waking up in the morning. it makes me want to live. you saved me. and when i was going back into that dark place you came back into my life an helped me. even tho you don’t realize it. you’ve helped me through almost everything. i think about you. constantly. sometimes i think about what it would be like if i had fought for you to stay but i didn’t know if that’s what you wanted. i hope you know that if we ever do end up together again i don’t want to be your first priority and i swear i’ll never hurt you or cheat. i’m not like the others. and your first priority should always be yourself. then whatever you want to be. you hurt me. more than anyone ever has. an you know the pains i’ve been through. but out of all them that one simple sentence hurt me the most. but that’s ok. as long as it made you happy. i understand you said you aren’t ready for a relationship and i respect that. i’m not tryna change your mind. i’m just tryna speak mind. i don’t know why but i feel this strong connection with you. i can’t leave you alone. i can’t imagine a life without you. thank you so much. for everything. and this prolly water hella your time so i’m sorry i just hope you are interested enough to listen now bc this isn’t all i have
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