hey. idk what to say. you were my first relationship. i was exploring my sexuality and you were there. a girl, with a crush on me. so, i of course, made myself have a crush on you. i still to this day don’t know if the feelings are real. i love you. just i’m not sure how. you feel like a friend to me. but i can’t loose you. i ride my bike and imagine you next to me. i want to grow old with you. but do i? truly? i’m not sure. am i forcing these emotions for attention? to avoid hurting you? i’m not sure.
