Unsent Messages

how sad it is that i write these to you and you will most likely never see them. still, i am used to your silence. How is it that i still replay situations between us that happened so many years ago. I still wonder the reason why you didn't want to be with me. I still don't know if part of you loved me but the idea that you did keeps me going. I would cry if i saw your face again. I want to hug you and never let go. Did you not know how madly in love with you i was? why did you lead me on and ghost me and act like i never existed to you? was i just another person to you? this is what i ask myself all the time. My mind wanders to you constantly. You are so beautiful on the inside and out. i love how authentic you are. Please find your way back to me. If not i will look for you when we die. I know our spirits were meant to interact and i just cant tell why yet.