Unsent Messages

I always hated when people said "I never meant to hurt you" because usually it was them letting themselves off the hook. Usually it didn't even mean anything. Usually people say it to excuse the damage or try to erase it somehow. I don't deserve to be let off the hook. I deserve the guilt of ruining us. You were the best person I ever met. You were the one, genuinely good person I knew. You felt like home to me and saved me time and time again. You were so good to me. And I wasn't good for you at all. I can't say I'm sorry for that because there's no words that I could come up with that would make it up to you. I wish I could take it back. I know you wish we never met and I understand that. I wish we never did too because you always deserved so much better than me and I really didn't deserve to be loved by someone like you only for it to end like this. I never wanted it to end like this. Maybe that's better than "I never meant to hurt you." Because with someone like you and someone like me, getting hurt was kind of always promised.