Unsent Messages

I thought we were so in love. How could you leave me so easily? How did I become so unimportant to you in just a month. I would have fought for us because I thought we had something so special. It breaks my heart knowing you wouldn’t do the same. I keep telling myself you’ll come back. But I’ve come to the realization your not. You were my best friend and not being able to talk to you is so hard. The amount of times I’ve wanted to reach out is unbelievable. But I can’t because your the one who left me. Left me with no closure. And yes “ not wanting to put the time in” wasn’t closure for me. Sometimes I wonder if you were just using me and I pray to god that wasn’t the case. You always jokingly accused me of cheating but I never even once thought of it. Connor you meant so much to me and I loved you with all of my heart. I would have done anything for you and our relationship. I will forever miss our late night FaceTimes and the way things were in the beginning. It sucks that u were the person i was closest to and now we are complete strangers. If I could choose to do it all over again I wouldn’t, because the way you abandoned me when I need you the most has caused me a terrible amount of pain.