Unsent Messages

so you were my first love in 7th grade. dont worry im fully over you and whatever. i chose this color because it's the color of the first stuffed animal you gave to me- by the way i threw that shit out. anyway congrats! you were the first person out of four to manipulate me and use me for my body, breaking my trust. what you did was unforgivable. sure we're "chill" now but i still talk shit abt what you did to me because ya know, well deserved. what made you think that was right?? you told me i deserved nothing etc in 12 paragraphs and told me it was your depression, you refused to talk to me during school, you fucking pushed me against a wall and physically hurt me. it was a joke, but when it went too far you didnt care. you literally slapped me and made me cry, and wouldnt apologize until hours later. who the fuck does that?? why did i stay with you? i was blinded by love and didnt even understand depression. but you are part of why i am like this today. i'd say i love you and you'd barely say it back. you responded to everything with "ok" and thought it was funny. you'd guilt trip me. and all you wanted to do was have sex before i moved - i am so glad i didnt give in. by the way you're ugly as fuck. im very glad we're done. i just never got the chance to lash out on you for hurting me so badly.