Unsent Messages

I´m thinking about staying w you, but I´m scared, that you´re lying again, you´re driving me crazy, I´ve kissed other people and is not the same, I´ve fucked other people and even if they´re good lovers is never the same, I don´t want to be like her, a ghost in you´re life, I wanted to be part of your life, I´m confused, I want to scream at you all the things that i cry for, I want to stop struggle, I want to stop fricking out everytime I think about the future and imagine that you´re not there, but I can´t, Because I want you to be there, but maybe we need time, cause right now it hurts so much that I cannot let this go... not right now, I really need to see how much you love me, no, it is´nt that, My heart needs to see it to feel it again, because you made me believe really bad, that you were the love of my life.