i love you so much. SO much. and it hurts knowing that you don't know how much it HURTS when you talk about her. the girl of your dreams. the pretty girl, the smart girl, the athletic girl. i love you so much, my darling, that all i'd ever want is for you to be happy. go and date your girl, your happy, beautiful girl, if that's what you want. truly, im happy for you. but is it selfish to say that, yes, i want you to be happy... but i want it to be with me? is that wrong? i think we'd be so compatible, i make you laugh, you teach me new things, i keep you company, you keep me awake on my phone smiling at my notifications. and i know you don't see me that way, and that's okay, and i love you, but... i wish i were her, you know?