Unsent Messages

I still love you.

And I know you hate me.

I spent all my time with you, and you just left me. Sometimes I wish we could bump into each other so I can show you how well I’m doing without you. I almost went through a fucking Ed. I wanted to kill myself because I was so alone. So don’t act like you have it worse. I didn’t do anything to o you apart from love you and tell you I love you. Some days I can’t decide whether I want to punch you or kiss you or both.

And why her. I could have been anyone but you chose her. I hate you and I love you and I want to kiss you and I love you.

I fucking love you.

What we had reminded me of what Cassie and Sid had in Skins, and how messed up that was.

I wish we had better.

I cry myself to sleep thinking of you and when I’m not crying I feel numb.

You are the first and the only person I ever connected with like that.

Don’t give me that bullishit that I messed us up because all I did was love you.

I loved you, and you broke me.

Your broke my heart.

And for that I will always remember you.

Even after 3 years, even after a lifetime.

Because you changed my life.