From: ABC
To: nick
Date: January 5, 2021, 2:16 pm
You left when I needed you there the most. After everything that happened you left me to take care of them alone. Why’d you runaway? Is it because you feel guilty? Well news flash, Nick, we all did. I thought out of everyone you would be the first person to understand that and the last to leave, I guess I got it all wrong. But still after all that, after months, years of telling myself i hate you, I still wait for a call, text, hell even a letter letting me know that your safe. If you saw me today I think you’d hate me. I changed for the better but you always liked me when I was at my worst. No more partying, no more chaos, no more benders, I couldn't do it anymore after Ty, I had to grow up. I like my new life and the people in it. Im terrified that you’re gonna show up and ruin it all. So why am i still grieving you? Why’d do I want you back at the same time? I just wanna see your face again, even if its just once. At least let me say goodbye.