Unsent Messages

you left when I was at my lowest and you cut me out of your life like it was the easiest thing to do, I cried myself to sleep all summer and I still cry sometimes, while you never shed a single tear thinking about me.
the worst part is that I really can't hate you, I wish I could hate you, I wish I could realise how bad and toxic you were for me, but I hate myself more, and most of all , I still love you more than I love myself. I'm starting to forget how your voice sounds, how you used to say my name, how it used to feel holding your hand, and the fact that I can't even hold on to these memories breaks my heart even more.
somebody told me that you're with her now, I really don't know whether it's true or not but it's none of my business, I know you loved her all along and I was just a girl that you'll forget about in a few years.
we could've work it out if you really cared about me, I was getting better, but I was right, you didn't give a shit , leaving me alone was the easiest way and you choose it, as I knew you would.
i bet you threw away all of my things I left at your house, even the stuff I made 4 you, I bet you throw them away like they were dirty tissues.
fuck you