From: ABC
To: Eliza
Date: November 26, 2020, 5:10 am
it's me again.
i just watched love simon, which makes me feel extra cool for writing this even though it's so stupid. i wish you could be the blue to my jacque. i think i liked that movie so much because it's everything that i wish we could be. or i guess that i could be. because i wish i could come out to my family and friends and the entire and school and have no one give a fuck. because i know if i did i'd lose almost everyone. but more importantly i wish you were in love with me as much as i am in love with you. when he was saying that thing about the ferris wheel, it's kind of like me and you. some days i'll feel like im on top of the world. those are the days when i have a conversation with you in school or get a text from you. but sometimes i'll overthink a conversation we had or something you said (or realize that you don't like me contradictory to my daydreams) and i'll feel like i'm at rock bottom. but the part where simon tells his friend about blue was just like me. i could, and do, talk about you for hours. i love telling my friends about the way you make me feel. but the kiss on the ferris wheel. AND OH MY GOSH THE KISS IN THE CAR. it hurt so bad. you have no idea how badly i wish that was us. i miss you.
love,
me
