Unsent Messages

I don't know what happened with us. One minute we were so close and the next so distant. When we finally became friends again you chose to trust her and that was the end I guess. You mean so much to me, more than you will ever know. You once told me you would always be there for me no matter what and I believed you. It has been a year, i know you moved on a lot faster than I did. I have tried but honestly hes not you. Hes never going to be you and I thought you treated me so good until i knew that you were talking to other girls. If you didn't like me why didn't you tell me. It was way worse watching you talk and hangout with them when we were fighting. You were the one thing that kept me here last year. Everyone warned me about you and how you were but I didn't listen.Sometimes I think that I was just the closest thing to her. We were best friends and I guess I was the closest thing to her. I knew you liked her but I ignored it because I didn't want to lose you and now I have. Its been a year now and I know you don't think about me the way I think about you. Sometimes I hope you find this and just know its about you even if you don't care. I wish you knew what I thought. I am sorry too. I blame myself more than I blame you. I hope we find our way back to each other.