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i’m sorry. i’m stupid ik. and i keep bringing up how u hurt me. it’s annoying yeah ik. but yk what? it hurt me so bad. i liked u so much, i looked up to u. u made me so happy and all i wanted was that happiness. but oh, u didn’t mean any of it, ur j a nice guy. right. u lied to me so many times and ofc i fell for it bc why wouldn’t i believe u? i had no reason to not trust u. and u broke that again and again. and now, you’ve ruined me. i can’t feel anything, i’m toxic, and i’m not happy. i miss u, but u were so bad for me. i miss snapping u and getting so excited when u said my name. i miss ur little compliments and the way you’d always make me smile. you always knew what to say, and that’s why i fell. but in the end u wanted her. but it’s okay there’s nothing i can do abt that. worst part was u dragged me along. u told me things every time it seemed like i was drifting away and getting over u. u kept me on a leash and i hated u for it. but despite everything, i still want what we could have had. i want that happiness, that adventure, that excitement. thanks to u i don’t trust anyone anymore, i can’t fall for anyone because i’m scared of that pain. i could never date you because i would give my all and you would be you, talking to other girls and even cheating. it hurts but i have to stay strong. thank you for making me stronger and not as naive. it hurt but i needed it. so, u gave me some of the highest and lowest moments of my life, but more than anything u taught me so much and i am so grateful to u for that. thank u and gn