Unsent Messages

hey, I know we just friends now but I still want us to be more than friends. ik we didn't talk for long but you picked me up from a really bad relationship and I just got attached to talking to you now it's kinda weird. Like I can't think or talk about you without just going crazy inside because I really wanted us to work out. You were the first boy I actually really liked in two years besides my toxic ass ex so that took a lot out to me also opening up to you after that short period of time took so much. I literally made myself so vulnerable and that wasn't enough. I know sometimes it just doesn't work out people are meant to be but I really felt like we had a good connection. well must have just been me, I got attached way to quickly and fell for you so hardly like back up. This has never happened before. I wish we could just go back and do it again. there's a lot of stuff I wish I didn't say after and stuff I wish I could realize and communicate more while we were talking. I'm a weird one, my mood swings are crazy, one minute I can be nice, having a good convo then Ill become hostile and rude because I get a bad feeling. I really thought you wouldn't hurt men and yes, you let me down nicely but it still really hurt. And now It's gotten really better, those feelings have somewhat died down, like if you texted me rn and said you'd miss me id tell you I missed you too but ik you wouldn't. idk you just made me feel so special like I never felt insecure about my body, n it was just something that you never pushed about which really made a difference. your a very chill person and I'm the exact opposite but I really try to be more chill idk maybe it's a personality defect. anyways I just hope we can try again.