Unsent Messages

it's been two years of finding our way back to each other. And I no longer cry over all the girls you constantly chose over me, I no longer cry over what could be and how much I miss you. Instead I'm appreciative of the good and learn from the bad. Thank you for loving me, thank you for showing me that I need to know my own worth and love myself. Thank you for being the safe place when I felt like I didn't have one, for being there for me through all my worst days. No matter what's happened I still wish you the best in life and hope you can have that relationship you've always wanted with a girl who loves you just as much as I did. I know there's so much I could say to you but I've kind of put all that hurt in my past and tried to grow from it. I don't blame you, we're young and loving someone like we did too young before we matured wasn't the best idea but I wouldn't take it back. I love you but I'm not in love with you anymore, I guess I just know that if we're meant to be it'll happen but I'm not pushing what's not meant to be. You've left me with attachment issues and trust issues that ruin all my new relationships even when I try to get past them.