i cant even begin to describe how much it pains me every day to know that i messed things up between us. i feel like ive lost one of the best people ill ever meet. ill never forget the day we bumped into each other, about a month and a half after i forgot to get your number at the beach. ill never forget our first kiss. im sorry vanessa, im trying my hardest to be better, but i dont expect you to accept me, or try any harder than you already did. i guess this was how things were meant to be; i was supposed to learn how it feels to lose someone that loved you more than they loved themselves. if you ever see this, contact me; i miss your voice even though i hear it every day.
in the next life,
r
