Unsent Messages

I know you don't care and I hate that it's hard to let go of someone like you I know I deserve better but I just want you to be better. I want to be with you, you made me happy you made me feel like I was really alive you saved me from a dark place but now your slowly putting me back there. I miss who I thought you were you understood what i was going through because you went through it to and i admit I'm not easy to love I'm damaged so i understood why you let and gave up on me what i don't understand is why you promised me something and broke it you said you would never leave so i opened up to you, and you left. I never told you this but you were the only man who ever truly made me feel safe. Any man who was in my life i feared and i never told you why but it doesn't matter because i trusted you now I'm afraid that i will never be able to trust or feel save. You were my safe place now its gone. what did i do to make you leave was i not enough for you. You said your done waiting but how are you waiting on someone you left behind. I miss you and i will be waiting but like a bus after waiting for one another comes through takes you though another path until you forget the path of the old bus. I hope you don't become a memory i hope if now isn't for us i hope the future is and we can rise together in order to let you go i have to tell you this but i know you would ignore it i know you'll never see this. Jordan i let you go you were there for me but i would drop everything to help you but i fear you wouldn't do the same for me you were never actually there. Goodbye Jordan until we meet again