dunno why ur still here, but i reckon it's because u feel guilty or smth. in the end, i dont wanna feel slighted and spiteful but rn i do. so thats how i feel, and u know i notice my feelings. but they are feelings, i do not need to act upon them if i dont want to. part of me thinks i was the better friend thru out our relationship idk. it hurts, bc in some ways you did know me. i still dont feel ready to date again, bc i didn't allow myself to heal so uh yeah theres that yee. but there is no rush, there is no goal. i will get there eventually, or maybe i don't - i just want to have my own best interests at heart. goodbye, i loved you to the moon and back. but now its time to love myself.