Unsent Messages

i think i hate you. or, moreover, i would like to. i think i forced myself to think i hated you to stop loving you but, as much as i wanna hate you, i don't. I love you so much, scarlet. you hate me. you literally said you were gonna light my house on fire. or, savana did. but on your phone. when i got that phone call i think my heart stopped for a second. first i thought of all the good reasons you could be calling me, then all the bad. it was bad. your true emotions were released, and my god was it painful. from then i decided i was gonna try to just hate you. but i couldn't. i still can't. i know at some point it's gonna go away just like how my feelings for evan did. but until then, i hope you're well i hope things are alright at home. i love you so much for whatever fucking reason.