Unsent Messages

you don’t get to keep doing this to me and acting like i’m nothing. i’m a living breathing human being i have feelings too. you literally treat me like i don’t exist and you ruin my self esteem every single time i hang out with you to the point where i don’t wear mascara with you because i know i’m gonna end up crying it off. i can’t even begin to put into words how fucking horrible you make me feel about myself. i wish you knew how bad you continuously hurt me. i try so hard to help you, i try so hard to be there for you, i try so fucking hard just to make sure you’re ok and you act like i’m just something you can pick up and use whenever you want. i’m so tired of this. i’m so tired of you. and everyone else is too. it’s time for you to actually change and mature but i don’t think you’ll ever make it to that point. everyone is so fucking tired of ur bullshit shane please just actually change for the better and realize how badly you’re hurting everyone around you. i sat in my room and cried all day wondering why i’m never enough while you got to go out and continue on your day because nothing ever effects you. all you care about is yourself and how your feeling. and i truly do hope that one day you realize that and decide to change.