Unsent Messages

idk how you broke me but you did i opened up to you i really tried to communicate and you hurt me so bad you told me i shouldve seen it coming and i did this to myself and cant tell if i believe it or not i honestly feel like you dont truly care anymore. today was awful you were out all day with her of course (isnt it funny how she looks just like your ex?). all day i was so depressed and insecure, i threw up after every meal all i wanted to do was talk to you. i hate the way you make me feel but i couldnt handle losing you. when i told you i never get like this with people i really meant it i never open up or fall for anyone maybe thats why im so afraid to lose you. its so dumb but throughout my day if im alone i imagine you there with me and what we’d talk and laugh about, i really wish that i could do that with you but i know once i see you i wont be able to stop thinking about the things youve done to me and said to me, and the girl youve been with it makes me so sick to even look at your face. idk why i ever let you do this to me . idk why i still love you like this.