i can’t make this shit up bro. i keep having very vivid and almost other worldly dreams and you’re always in them. is this shit all in my head like what?? your mom gave you something that represented your dad and brother and you started to get upset and i just held your hand. i felt like i was absorbing all of your pain in the dream and woke up sad. i hope everything’s okay and it’s just my imagination running wild. i hope you’re getting the support you need. i may resent things you have done but the love never fades only seeps deeper into my subconscious. i sincerely miss you. i don’t know why this is still so hard. it’s been a fucking year.