Unsent Messages

I don't think you knew how much you meant to me, and I don't think I knew either. They say you don't know what you have until it's gone, and I never fully understood that saying until you. I feel like I took you for granted. You always treated me so kindly, always making me laugh and making sure I felt comfortable. Your smile was contagious and you were always the brightest part of my day. And I don't know how you did it, but you managed to make the smell of weed and cheap Halloween decorations a comfort item to me. I always wanted to do more with you, we never got the chance to do the things we planned together. And majority of the reasons why we couldn't are on me, I knew that my parents are strict, but I should have at least snuck you over to my house once. Spending time with you would have been worth getting in trouble for, I feel like our energies were very intertwined, but the timing was always off. I appreciate every text you send me. Even if they're just on the holidays, it let's me know you're still thinking of me. Maybe one day we can get the chance to reconnect, I'd like to finally make the timing right. I miss you.