its been about a year and a half probably two and when we get close for a period of time I hate how I get attached even knowing u don't want me more than just my body. I wish u knew what love was and that I was the first to show u what it felt like. You broke me in so many ways and I could never hate u and forever drop u and I hate it. I hate how u can make me so happy and so upset so easily and how easy it is for you to just leave. why wasn't I ever enough for you I tried so hard and in times when I didn't it felt like it didn't matter what I did I just never was going to be enough. I wish u left me sooner because seeing u have eyes on other girls while u were with me hurt like a bitch. You caused so much pain and yet I still can let myself get close to u again and again.
