Unsent Messages

i know what keeps you up at night. i know what your insecurities are. about your childhood trauma. what makes you feel comforted. how you cant eat without being high. you cant sleep without it being 70 degrees, your fan on low and without 4 pillows. how sensitive your skin is and what materials of clothing you prefer. i know why you'd rather stay home than go out. i know every single freckle and every scar you have. all this and so much more. within 2 months. you cant even tell me my birthday or my middle name. id be so surprised if you remembered my favorite color. maybe this is why i fell harder than you. i invested myself more. maybe thats why it was so easy to walk away from me. every single day it breaks me more not to be with you. just please come back when you're ready. ill be waiting bb.